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Happy 

Every once and a while you meet these people that make you think that just maybe you’ve been doing something right after all to deserve them in your life. 

Back Again

It has been AGES since I’ve last posted. I’ve mostly been journaling instead. I can be raw with my feelings and emotions that way cos no one else will see that. 

I’ve recently gotten back into my photography. I’m so happy and excited about that. It’s been a while since I’ve taken a hold of my camera and really take picture. I’m glad I’m tapping into this creative side again. 


I’ve been heading out a lot recently to just explore the world confined around me in the city of LA. So much to do and so much to see. I want to do a lot more. I want to feel alive. I want to chase these feelings and let them out in a creative way. It’s like chasing electricity. It’s a drug I crave. 

I was digging through old photos of my Europe trip and found some amazing shots back when I began with my first DSLR. 



The travel bug has struck. I want to head out and explore. I want to see the world. I am beginning with the states. I have a road trip on the books for April. Traveling through Route 66. The thought of it just makes me beam with excitement. 

Tapping into my creative side really makes me want to blog more. Just so I can post more and jot things down….. To post pictures of the many adventures I partake in. 

Let’s see how this goes…… 

2016

We’re 1/4 of the way into 2016 and I have to say it’s been one of the best years in a long time. So much has happened and I’m excited for what’s to come.

I’ve lost contact with some friends, made some new friendships and have even reconnected with friends from my past. 

I’m a tad nervous and scared for a few things, but can’t let those feelings take over and run my life. Gotta just see where the rest of this ride will take me. 

FutureSex/LoveSounds

I recently heard this song again. It’s been over a year since I’ve listened to it and it made me think of the past. Not what I expected, but what can I do. It’s funny how surprisingly accurate the lyrics are. I had to gender swap, but the point remained the same…..

  
🎶You know what you want
And that makes you just like me
See everybody says you’re hot baby
But can you make it hot for me?

Said if you’re thinking about holding back
Don’t worry boy, cause I’m gonna make it so easy
So slide a little bit closer to me baby boy
See daddy’s on a mission to please, wait a second

He’s hopped up on me, I’ve got him in my zone
His body’s pressed up on me, I think He’s ready to blow
Must be my FutureSex/LoveSound
And when it goes down, baby all ya gotta do is

Just tell me which way you like that
All you gotta do is tell me which way you like that
Do you like it like this? Do you like it like that?
Tell me which way you like that
Tell me which way you like that

You can’t stop baby
You can’t stop once you’ve turned me on
And your enemies are your thoughts baby
So just let em go
Cause all I need is a moment alone to give you my tongue
And put you outta control
And after you let it in, we’ll be skin to skin
It’s just so natural, wait a second

He’s hopped up on me, I’ve got him in my zone
His body’s pressed up on me, I think He’s ready to blow
Must be my FutureSex/LoveSound
And when it goes down, baby all ya gotta do is🎶

Fun times! 

Raging Waters

I can’t swim. When deciding what I was going to do this past Saturday, we originally planned for the beach. People couldn’t (and some didn’t want to) go. Debating what to do Pedro and I decided on a theme park. He chose Raging Waters, and I was hesitant. I’ve never been there, and I can’t swim, so I was nervous about going. I mentioned Six Flags and Knotts, but in the end I caved and said yes to the water park, where I believed I would meet my end. 

  
We stopped by a Ralph’s for some liquid courage and to enjoy the park a lot more.  Google took us to the back end of the park, and we had to find our way around until we spotted the entrance. 

 

On The Raging Waters Tram


As nervous as I was, Pedro told me that all the drops are into about 4 feet of water, so that eased my nerves a bit. The booze and some (as kidvic calls it) Good Stuff! also helped a lot in calming me down.  We ended up going with one of his friends, Nathaniel, and we all got a season pass for this year and next year, so I know we will be going back!

 
There was a point where we went back to the car to meet up with Ryan and load his luggage in my car. During this time we wanted another Good Stuff! Break, but the fucking lighter gave out. We were upset, but back into the park we went. At one point we found some chairs under the shade and knocked out for a bit while Ryan and Nathaniel went on more slides.

Overall a fun trip and adventure for me. Thank you Pedro for convincing me to go. Sorry for pushing you into the waterfall in the Amazonian River. You deserved it tho! 😜

My Bartender 

 How awesome is it to have a bartender that hooks you up? Let me tell you, it’s fucking awesome!! The fact that he’s also a hottie really is the icing on the cake. Free drinks, great conversations, I mean what else can I ask for? I don’t take advantage though, as I generously tip each and every time. I mean generously, so I think that helped a lot too. Makes me look humble, appreciative and greatful, which I am. 

I have a feeling the first time was just him being generous. That then turned into him recognizing me, and followed by the awesome treatment I get every single time I go in. Free beers, mixed drinks, and shots of his favorite liquor. I gotta say, I’m super happy and greatful. 

Thank you Jessica, you wonderful and beautiful girl, for the marvelous introduction. Love you!!

Déjà Vu

  
I’m developing a crush again. Only this time the circumstances are a lot different, and I’m interested to see where this leads me. They say curiosity killed the cat and if that’s the case then this curious feline is doomed. 

I’m trying to keep my expectations on check, because let’s face it, when you don’t, things don’t always turn out the way you hope. I have to keep in mind that crushes tend to be an idolization of a person, so I can’t be shocked if it doesn’t live up to my expectations. But this time, it may live up to it. Key word: may.  Too good to be true? Possibly, but in life the future isn’t written, so the possibilities are endless. 

I don’t want to be left wondering “what if?” Worst case scenario is we end up becoming friends. If that’s the worst that can happen, then I shouldn’t worry at all.  

Progress 

I’ve been going hard at the gym recently. My food intake hasn’t always been the healthiest choices but I try to eat clean as much as I can. From where I was earlier in the year, I’ve seen lots more progress and I’m so happy about that. I was shirtless in Vegas at the Planet Hollywood Pool. Who would have ever thought that!? Not me, that’s for sure. I’ve still got a bit ways to go to get to where I want to be, and I’m excited that it’s closer and closer. 💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼

 

Gut Instinct

My last post was dedicated to taking things at face value. Well that shit just flew out the window when I was placed in a situation of seeing my last fling at a bar on a date, and being a bit too boozed up to think clearly. It’s so stupid. I don’t know why I half converted into a teenage girl and we both played the “I saw you and you saw me” game, but neither one of us would initiate the first move in starting a conversation. I could be wrong and he probably wanted to just ignore me or didn’t think of me at all, but I don’t think so…..

I should have gone with my gut instinct. It told me to just go up and say, “hey! How are you? Hope everything has been good. Just wanted to stop ya to say hi. Enjoy the rest of your night.” But nope, that didn’t happen. 

What’s done is done. You live and you learn. Next time regardless of what happens, I will trust my gut and do what it tells me. 

Face Value

I tried to convince myself that I was going to stop fucking with somebody, but then there I was waiting on them to do something to change my mind.

I’ve decided to stop the bullshit and take things for face value. People show you who they are. We can’t hope that they will change, because they won’t. If they act and treat you like they don’t care or give a shit, then they really don’t care or give a shit. 

This goes for everyone: friends, family, dating, ect.  I’m tired and done wasting my time and effort. I deserve better. 

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