Past, Present and Future
Changes happen over time; It’s inevitable. Since my last entry, I’ve gone from Point A to Point Z. I’m not the same person I was when I last posted on the site, which was over a year and a half ago.
Last night I found my journal, I flipped to the last entry, and read it. I actually cringed at the words, my words, that I’d written. It was as if a completely different person with my retained memories was living my sad yet happy life. I’m not going to lie, back then I had issues with my weight, but that was just the tip of the iceberg. I was so unhappy with not only where I was, but who I was as a person. I projected this facade of happiness so people wouldn’t see me at that low and it worked. Some of my closer friends saw and recognized the issue I had with my weight, but I played it off as body issues everyone seems to have and deal with. I thought it was better for them to focus on that than everything else I was going through.
I won’t get into it all now, as I would most likely ramble for what seems like an eternity in this matter, but I’m happy to realize that I now understand and have overcome the issues I was dealing with back then.
My future looks a lot brighter. I plan on still journaling, which is something I want to keep doing, but I also plan on updating a lot more often on here. The more public things on here, and the more personal things for my journal. It’s finally time I get my creative juices flowing and start the projects I’ve always wanted to do. It may be towards the end of 2014, but no need to wait until the new year to start. I’m excited for what’s to come!